Interpret This

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Dreams are weird. I really wish I had been writing all these down, because pregnant dreams can be out of control. (I once had a dream that I gave birth to 12 Popsicles, and my family was fighting for the frozen treats, unperturbed.) Last night was another bizarre one.

I woke myself up from talking loudly, which I never do. Talking in my sleep happens all the time (apparently), but never to the point of waking myself up. I guess I had something important to say. Grahm isn't here this week (so many tears), so he wasn't there to rehash what I said. Though, now that I think about it, he's never really good at that anyway. I'm actually kind of terrified that he'll never hear Sawyer cry in the middle of the night. Girl better have a set of lungs on her. Wait. I realized what I just wished. I take it back; I totally take it back.

Back to the dream.
I was wandering through a field that I recognized. I was holding hands with Grahm, guiding him through the tall wheat stalks. My dress was white and long. Very granola. I was barefoot and visibly pregnant. We were smiling. Eventually, we were in a house. Or cabin. It was a very long cabin; the hallway looked like it was never going to end. Rooms shot off in every direction. Toys were piled in the hall, and we had to climb or strategically maneuver around them to progress. It was a struggle; some of the toys were incredibly big. I was still holding Grahm's hand.

After what seemed like ages of hurdling plastic, noisy things, we decided to turn into one of the rooms. I kept asking for water. Maybe we thought this room had some. Instead two women who I didn't recognize were there. They were horrified when they saw us. "What are you doing here! You can't be here! This isn't for you. You cannot be here." They kept repeating those words over and over and over.

Grahm and I stood there, shocked. I started to cry. "We thought this was the way?" Grahm asked the women, who were now walking toward us. "You cannot be here. This isn't for you," they repeated. Before they reached us, Grahm lead me back to the hallway. More climbing. More struggling. It was a haze. I remember feeling tired, but Grahm never letting go of my hand. I still wanted water.

The next thing I know, we are in another room. It was big. This time there was only one man present. He was sitting by a pool, and I desperately wanted to jump in. He didn't say anything to us, but I talked to him anyway. His face seemed comforting somehow. "I'm having a baby. Now. A baby. This is happening now." Grahm sat me down and told me dip my feet in the water. The cold ripped through me. The old man was still there, still watching, still silent. I then started recounting every line of various Friends episodes that I could think of, all to the old man. He only nodded. Up and down, up and down. Grahm still held my hand.

I woke myself up saying, "Bing. Bing. Chandler Bing."

11 comments:

Laura Piersall said...

Haha! Nice description, Jena. I was totally sucked in... waiting for a profound or possibly creepy ending, but the Friends ending was much better and much more like the wacky pregnancy dreams I remember.

Kaysie said...

sometimes it's better not to know ;)

Brianna said...

Wow! Crazy is right! So funny that you woke up by reciting lines from Friends... I've heard pregnancy dreams are weird, and this just proves it! Ha!

I hope your hubby comes home soon!

Lauren said...

creeeeeeeeepy!! until the friends recounting which was totally awesome!! i had some whacky dreams too - including neon colored kittens coming out of the wall. whaaaat?? enjoy these last few weeks of pregnancy, mama!

oh, and PS. ryan hradly ever heard Camden crying in the night.... and i wanted to kill him. so i resulted to literally kicking him out of bed. the love in our house just RADIATED on some days/nights ;)

Holly said...

I was super creeped out until the end. I also love that that's how you woke up :)

Laura @ Liverunsparkle.com said...

LOL what a weird dream. Have you tried googling your dreams? I do it all the time, I don't know what the Chandler Bing reference was trying to tell you but... haha.

Kalyn V said...

So what this dream obviously means is that Sawyer is not a girl like you originally thought, and she is a he and his name will be Chandler Bing and he will grow up to a wise old man who comforts pregnant women in times of great distress. Also he will love to swim in pools.

Allison said...

Oh my gosh. Dreams are so crazy!!

Kaity said...

I so wish I could interpret this. I once told a dream to a counselor, though and she told me that water in dreams represents femininity. Which is fitting because, ya know...you're preggo.

That's about the best I've got. Haha.

Whitney Alison said...

You and Grahm are entering a new phase of your life, but you're facing it together hand in hand. The idea of being a parent, being a good parent seems like an insurmountable thing. Also...children change our lives. The piles and piles of toys that you have to strategically move around are those potential life changes. The fact that you held Grahms hand through all that show's he's your partner. Through something as mundane as moving toys, but you navigate together. The women aren't really surprising. Again becoming a mom is huge, we wonder if we are cut out for this. You and Grahm turned away together. (So much together in this dream...its nice actually.)....as for the rest...that's just crazy preggo brain stuff :)

Becky said...

Im watching Friends while reading this and now I am dying laughing!! Dreams are crazy!